She Left Me the Gun: My Mother's Life Before Me

She Left Me the Gun: My Mother's Life Before Me

"One of those memoirs that remind you why you liked memoirs in the first place... It has the density of a very good novel... As you do with the best writers, you feel lucky to be in Ms. Brockesâ€™s company." --Dwight Garner, The New York Times

A chilling work of psychological suspense and forensic memoir, She Left Me the Gun is a tale of true transformation: the story of a young woman who reinvented herself so completely that her previous life seemed simply to vanish, and of a daughter who transcends her motherâ€™s fears and reclaims an abandoned past.

â€œOne day I will tell you the story of my life,â€ promises Emma Brockesâ€™s mother, â€œand you will be amazed.â€ Brockes grew up hearing only pieces of her motherâ€™s pastâ€”stories of a rustic childhood in South Africa, glimpses of a bohemian youth in Londonâ€”and yet knew that crucial facts were still in the dark. A mystery to her friends and family, Paula was clearly a strong, self-invented woman; glamorous, no-nonsense, and frequently out of place in their quaint English village. In awe of Paulaâ€™s larger-than-life personality, Brockes never asked why her mother emigrated to England or why she never returned to South Africa; never questioned the source of her motherâ€™s strange fears or tremendous strengths.

Looking to unearth the truth after Paulaâ€™s death, Brockes begins a dangerous journey into the landâ€”and the lifeâ€”her mother fled from years before. Brockes soon learns that Paulaâ€™s father was a drunk megalomaniac who terrorized Paula and her seven half-siblings for years. After finally mustering the courage to take her father to court, Paula is horrified to see the malevolent man vindicated of all charges. As Brockes discovers, this crushing defeat left Paula with a choice: take her own life, or promise herself never to be intimidated or unhappy again. Ultimately she chooses life and happiness by booking one-way passage to Londonâ€”but not before shooting her father five times, and failing to kill him. Smuggling the fateful gun through English customs would be Paulaâ€™s first triumph in her new life.

She Left Me the Gun carries Brockes to South Africa to meet her seven aunts and uncles, weighing their stories against her motherâ€™s silences. Brockes learns of the violent pathologies and racial propaganda in which her grandfather was inculcated, sees the mine shafts and train yards where he worked as an itinerant mechanic, and finds in buried government archives the court records proving his murder conviction years before he first married. Brockes also learns of the turncoat stepmother who may have perjured herself to save her husband, dooming Paula and her siblings to the machinations of their hated father.

Most of all, She Left Me the Gun reveals how Paula reinvented herself to lead a full, happy life. As she follows her motherâ€™s footsteps back to South Africa, Brockes begins to find the wellsprings of her motherâ€™s strength, the tremendous endurance which allowed Paula to hide secrets from even her closest friends and family. But as the search through cherished letters and buried documents deepens, Brockes realizes with horror that her motherâ€™s great success as a parent was concealing her terrible pastâ€”and that unearthing these secrets threatens to undo her motherâ€™s work.

A beguiling and unforgettable journey across generations and continents, She Left Me the Gun chronicles Brockesâ€™s efforts to walk the knife-edge between understanding her motherâ€™s unspeakable traumas and embracing the happiness she chose for her daughter.
Country USA
Brand Random House Books for Young Readers
Manufacturer Penguin Books
Binding Paperback
Color White
ReleaseDate 2014-06-24
UnitCount 1
Format Illustrated
EANs 9780143125365

Country	USA
Brand	Random House Books for Young Readers
Manufacturer	Penguin Books
Binding	Paperback
Color	White
ReleaseDate	2014-06-24
UnitCount	1
Format	Illustrated
EANs	9780143125365

She Left Me the Gun: My Mother's Life Before Me

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